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Winters are approaching, now I have to keep the windows closed, just like how I have cut myself from people I guess. It’s not something I am very proud of but I believe one must protect their peace at all cost, even if it means that you must say goodbye to the person you loved, adored and worshipped more that you should have at some time.

People are chapters, some have continuity others die at a young age and end at one point or another. Love is fiction now-a-days, people genuinely love the idea of being in love. But none of us are really ready for the days when you will have fights, won't talk to each other for days, support the other person through breakdowns, you will have to text the other person even though they tell you they want to be left alone, it's harsh but it's true. Love is crap, but I wish someone proved me wrong.

Being hurt in love is like is like a disability. People will give you sympathy but that's not what you want. You want to be loved not replaced. it's like having your leg or arm amputated. It feels like shit, but trust me you will grow, you will blossom and when you will look back, you will say nothing but - DAMNNN! That was me a year ago. But in order to grow, you have to cut parts of yourself that hinders your growth.

A year ago I would have died to be where I am today, and today it feels really good to see how far I have come.

I believe being born as a human is the greatest gift, anyone can have. It means you have to luxury to think, to create, to express unlike animals who are more or less bound by the moral laws of nature. Ain't nobody up there writing our futures. We are meant to write them on our own. Take the hard decisions, do whatever your heart cause honestly no-one really gives a fuck. There are no wrong decisions in life, it’s just one with a different outcome.

Something I learned this year, that hit me really hard was “You must do what you love, otherwise you will have to love what you do” and honestly that felt like crap. Doing the same melancholic work that doesn’t excites you when you get up in the morning is something that you should be scared of. Nobody has their shit sorted, some just hide it better than you. It's about enduring, learning and sacrificing a lot from today just to be the stronger and better version that you are going to be tomorrow. But it does not mean in any way that you are not supposed to have fun.

Note for my readers:

I don't know how but when you just keep doing that you know you must do in order to grow, things start falling in place. Through some unexpected ways I have met a lot of amazing people this year ❤️

Thankyou to the people who stayed, thankyou to the people who left, y'all helped me a lot in being who I am today.