Out loud

Someone once said "words would never be enough to express your true emotions" and now I feel this everyday. People call me writer but I get lost when her notification pops up.

I tell her, that she's the one and she tells me "I am just a muse for you". I star your voice notes, that are just so normal for you but damn why do they feel so special to me? How do I tell you that I keep playing your humming voice note on loop cause that might not make so much sense but it makes so much sense to me. It makes me believe that all of this will all be worth it one day. Do I make any sense by the way?

I look at this person, and both my mind and heart says in unison "you gotta work your ass off, if you want this person". Ohh dear universe, please tell me something that will subdue this fire in me to seek her. How do I tell her that ever since the day we had our first conversation, things around me started to make sense. I started to work on myself, I pursed things that interests, suddenly I was invincible I was no more afraid of failures and most importantly I started living so much more than I used to. How do I tell her that I know things are not in her favour right now, but I wanna stick around especially when she going through so much. How I don’t wanna give up on her and it doesn’t matter what somebody else has to offer. I just wanna be a better man, when she’s around.

But it really doesn't matter isn't it? We are all here, just because a particular chaos happened somewhere in this vast cosmos a million billion years ago, which gave birth to this very universe of ours and to us. I write gibberish and that makes some people believe in love, especially the ones who thought love was nothing but a lie. After-all hope is all we have got.